Chor Geok Lung
-The best mom in the world-
First of all, I thank all of you who have been with me throughout the difficult past 8 months. I thank all of you who have believed with me all the while, never giving up on my mother. Even when the whole world stops believing with me, you stay. Your faith has encouraged me & helps me to press on during days when I wanted to stop believing.
I thank all who have prayed for my mother fervently all the way or have at least prayed for her once. I am sure God hears all our prayers & have answered them all in His timings & sovereignty.
I thank all of you who have prayed for me all these while. I believe I may not have the strength, endurance, perseverance & tenacity to move on, walk on & pray on if I am alone in these whole journey.
I thank all of you who came to be with us at the wake & even cremation. Your presence made a difference & is deeply appreciated by my family & myself.
In all, I thank God for you.
Am I disappointed with God for the passing away of my mother?
“I was”.
That afternoon after my mother passed away, I went to the toilet & asked myself.
“Shirley, is it worthwhile to pray all the way, believing with all my heart for a miracle, attended the miracle services every Sat, forgoing all my dates, studying on all the sites & articles about God’s miraculous healing, pressing on even when everyone stop believing?”
God spoke, “My daughter, it is. If you have not done all that, you will regret now for stop believing then. At least right now when you look back, you can say to yourself that you have never given up until the last moment. You have given your all.”
“So God, why the visions of my mom standing up & being well? Why the dreams?”
“See carefully, your mother is standing happily with me now.”
On the second night of the funeral wake, I did not sleep at all. As I chatted with Hannah & Faith at night, God answered the question deep down in my heart. We were talking about my mother & God’s healing power.
Then I remembered one of the hindrances why a person is not healed when prayed.
“Because a person’s life on earth is over.”
“Huh? Oh, why did I not think of that? I think it was because this is the only one thing that I couldn’t do anything about. When Enoch’s life on earth is over, God took him home. Yes, I think this is the reason why my mom wasn’t healed.”
I have been thinking all the while that it might be my faith. I have no faith at all when I pray? Or is it my mother’s faith? Or is it her sin?
“No, it is not all these. It is not your faith or your mother’s faith. It is not because of her sin. She repent of all sins, remember?” It is because I know that she will be happier here with me. I decided to take her home.”
I wanted to write this because I do not want anyone to give up your faith or hope in believing for a miraculous healing. It is always God’s will to heal us emotionally, mentally & physically. My mom did not get healed simply because God knows she will be happier in Heaven. This may not apply to everyone. I still believe in miracles & miraculous healing from God today.
When I thought of my mother’s life, indeed she worried a lot. She was constantly thinking of others, worrying about everything. She thinks about others so often that she didn’t have time for herself. She never/seldom enjoys her life, always wishing the best & wanting the best for us, her children.
Why did I say she is the best mom in the world?
It is not because she is perfect. That she is wonderful all the times.
It is because she is my mom.
Sometimes when she was really unreasonable & driving me nuts, I feel like hating her…
It was then God spoke to me.
“Daughter, love & honor your mom not because she is perfect. Do so because she deserves it”
My mom is a great mom.
I was discussing her character & attribute with Jeffery, my younger brother during the 2nd night of my mom’s wake. And I began to pen down all the attributes of my mom.
My Mom
~ Capable (very)
~ Kind-hearted (Very)
~ Wise
~ Righteous
~ Loyal & faithful to friends
~ Treasure relationships lots (Very)
~ Strong
~ Cheerful/friendly
~ Woman of Faith
~ People-oriented
My mom is capable, very capable. She started working at a very young age, 9 or 10 years old. Tried every hard work you can find, construction site for eg. For ten over years, she worked as a night shift factory worker. Everyday, she will go to work at 10pm at night & comes home at 7am in the morning after she does all her marketing. Then she will start to do all the household chores till evening time. She cooks every meals everyday. From 7pm to 10pm is her sleeping time. Then she goes to work again.
Can you imagine that? She maintains that sleeping habits & lifestyle for 10 over years!!! I was always amazed when I think about it now. When I was young, I used to play with my younger brother & always wait till my mom has gone for work; we will start to play till late at night!
She is loyal & faithful to friends. Never fail to help her friends in any ways. With a generous heart, she always gives out her life and time to people. A righteous woman who will not compromise her integrity in any situation. She always does the right thing.
My mom is a people-oriented person. She never fails to know new friends wherever she goes. She never fails to bring laughter into people’s lives. J She is also a woman of faith. Very strong in faith and I still remember the time when I was in agony because of my stomach pain. She lay hand on me and prayed fervently for me. And the pain left me. Everyday she will pray for my family, every one by name. My mom treasure relationships a lot. She values family and friends. Most importantly, she loves. She loves with an unconditional love. I love you mom!
